I don't know how much i lost these weeks,but,it was,actually a lot,two much that i can't afford.Something terrible happened and has even influenced my study because i can't do my homework as well as the beginning weeks.It really confused me.The way that i can only have a release is that writing about the things,the things deep down my heart.Study played a really important role to me ,i just kept blaming on myself if i didn't done well or haven't had my best study state,but how about my mid-term examinition?I'm worried neverthless i can't do anything to myself.

   my maths marks?

   friendship?

   relationship between roommates and noisy environment?

   Some of the prombles have been solved but some still there,i konw i'm not as brare as i should be but i will try my best.My mood isn't so good and i don't know what to do.Someone was working harder and harder and got greatly steped but i was in the back ,walking back and back.

   I can still remember the zero score in the PE lesson and the person who hurt me just stand in front of me to see my failure,a really expectable but horribe failure,which have been made it lose all my face,and,she have done it a really expectable success,quite different from me.

   It made me so sad.

   Really sad.

   I can still remember the maths teacher had no patience to teach me a tiny little promble,and i don't know whose fault it is ,but i thought,so many classmates steped except i,even goes back.I really suspected my IQ,i have no confidence to go on,my brin is so slow,i can't do everthing well, so i have the conclusion that ,it's my fault,but l hated her as well,just no appearence but i will not ask her questions any more and i don't want those people who have better marks to say that they have understood this promble when i was asking the impatient teacher some silly questions.

   And i have to say that the only teacher who treated me well and cares about me is MZ.Z.

   Violet said the thing written can eaily be seen by others,but,i think they can not be eaily understood now as a result of my English interpertion.haha!Maybe the only person that can understand it is U!Cause U are my friends who can understand me.And the person who companied me and conforted me is my mum.U are all my ture love.

  And my lover English never abadoned me.